Cassie: So can I be real witchu?

You: Be real!

Cassie: Imma be real witchu.

Why is Life such a gamble at every turn (Life is pictured above)? Life decides what happens to me. And Life even decides that no matter what, Life is going to screw me over one way or another. Life tells me that if I want money, I can't have the future I want. So then I reason with Life and say, "I will give it all for the nookie!" And so Life laughs at me, truly entertained by my naivety, and tells me that if I give it all for the nookie I will have no money to have the future I want. So then I say "well screw you Life! SCREW you and that little horse you road in on." And then Life laughs at me because he knows someone who reads this blog is going to be offended. Well, can you blame me right now? And if you say yes please know I don't feel I owe you an apology. (But for real baby, forgive me).

Crazy

Today I imagined paint spilling out of my eyes, errupting from my ears, blasting out of my nose. Work has a way of smushing me into a little box and stuffing in every last strand of hair to be sure they close the lid on me securely. I'm not fitting in this box, guys!! This job was meant for someone who didn't really want to do much but get paid. And yes, it is paying and I'm ever so thankful.

All these years and years and god awful years I've spent loathing my creative self, surpressing my inner wild, teaching myself how to be cookie cutter only to come to the realization that I need to undo it all. Whether I like it or not I am always going to be crazy, up and down, this way and that, freakish, odd, creative, wild and utterly uncontained. God it feels so GOOD to be embracing my roots.

I'm writing again, I'm painting again, I'm composing again and I'm going to wear my David Bowie shirt to work. Try to stop me.

Nephews

These are some pictures of my younger nephews. Red head is David and the blonde is Doug. Thought I should post some recent pictures. David was on the brink of a melt down before Aaron hitched him on his shoulders. A whole new perspective!!

Doug I think was a little over stimulated by all the people around.

So not long ago I tried to win a David Bowie shirt on ebay that looked like this. I lost in a heated battle when I wouldn't pay more than $50 for it. I was sad and I could hear David Bowie singing "Within You" whislt a single tear trailed down my cheek.

But THEN I found this wonderful artist at ETSY.com, Suzanne Sarver! Check out her stuff: http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=6544583

So she is making me this one of a kind shirt, custom made (below). Jealous? You should be, because it is soooooo coooooool.